Take My Hand

this is the most terharu-ing thing i read today.so juz wanna share it with u ppl
i read from another blogger..so juz “cetak rompaking” it to share with u ppl.

Come, take my hand, the road is long
We must travel by stepping stones.
No, you’re not alone, I’ll go with you.
I know the road well, I’ve been there.
Don’t fear the darkness, I’ll be with you.
We must take one step at a time.
But remember, we may have to stop awhile,
It is a long way to the other side
And there are many obstacles.
We have many stones to cross, some are bigger than others.
Shock, denial, and anger to start.
Then comes guilt, despair and loneliness.
It’s a hard road to travel, but it must be done.
It’s the only way to reach the other side.
Come, slip your hand in mine.
What? Oh yes, it’s strong, I’ve held so many hands like yours.
Once, you see, I had to take someone’s hand
In order to take the first step.
Oops! You’ve stumbled; go ahead and cry,
Don’t be ashamed, I understand.
Let’s wait here awhile and get your breath.
When you’re stronger we’ll go on, one step at a time.
There’s no need to hurry.
Say, it’s nice to hear you laugh. Yes, I agree,
The memories you shared are good.
Look, we’re halfway there now. I can see the other side,
It looks so warm and sunny.
Oh, have you noticed, we’re nearing the last stone
and you’re standing alone!
And look, your hand, you’ve let go of mine!
We’ve reached the other side.
But wait, look back, someone is standing there.
They are alone and want to cross the stepping stones.
I’d better go, they need my help.
What? Are you sure?
Why, yes, go ahead, I’ll wait. You know the way, you’ve been there.
Yes, I agree, it’s your turn, my friend,
To help someone else cross the stepping stones

i’m too sexy for your body~ Haha

okay i dunno why i just feel like having that for a title!!
oh yeahh~ baby, i’m too sexy for ur body..too sexy..too sexxay~~
haha jking jking..hello me? sexy?haha no part of me can be associated with the word s-e-x-y ok
i’m obviously no playboy material..haha not even half close to FHM(izzit FHM? hmm wat does dat stands for btw?)
i hav extra pounds here and there.and OMG cellulites!!!
okay ..bound to hav this kind of prob when u dun exercise and eat like a pig:P but dun worry.
i am happy with my body!! and u should too!!! u think one day u eat 1 apple and u can be like nicole kidman ar?
hallo!! u become aneroxic okay~life is short eat good & healthy food.why starve?!stoopid~

ok tell u what OMG !!
i’ll be 20 this year..i can’t believe it..
i thought i’ll b 19 this year!!!
i mean i woke up and said hmm..how old am i?
20..SERIOUS?!! Nooooo…Noooo..19
hm am i 19? okay 17 in F5
18 in L6,19 in Upper6
oh shitt!! i’m 20 this year!!!!
i wasted my youth!!!!oh man i wanna be 17 again!!!
ok it’s not really a problem tho..
i’m 20 but i’m still acting just like when i was 17..
SO FAST TIME FLIES!!!
grrr…and i can’t even remember anything outrageous or fun i’ve done for the last 2 years!!

okay..enough with beauty & age..lemme do something outrageous today!!!!
like…okay go to church..and erm go outfor late supper..stay up late watch movie~
hohoho outrageous konon!!! hm..uni application over edy..now juz wait to be called for interviews..
wait and wait..pray and pray. hopefully get the course i want and can go to good uni.

deng..yesterday i was sleeping and i dreamt i was at a damn choppy river..deras & bahaya
and i saw a buaya and micky mouse in danger..fuyoo~
i knw this is such a stoopid dream..
ok buaya was on a rockla..he cannot swim i dunno y?buaya can swim rite?
ok and mickey mouse was on another rock with a daisy in his hand singing la~la~la~
and heck the water’s rising..
SO i streched out my hand..*funny my hand is so big..(rescue mission..fuh!!)
and i can pick up buaya (he’s the size of my palm) and put him on higher ground
and then i picked up mickey by the nose..u knw the small black thing..haha
and put him to safety..okay the weirdest part is coming..
and when i let go of mickey’s nose..it fell off..i mean serious!!
the black thing fell of his face..ping~ping~~ ping~~~
i was like shit!!! i destroyed mickey mouse’s nose!!
and i was like shit shit shit..how?i so scared mickey will die without his nose..
and i heard phone ringing for long time.
and i woke up~ phone was really ringing..it was from a bored TL..
talk to him abit..and go back to sleep but can’t dream of mickey mouse anymore..
hmm…i hope he can fix back his nose..
haha it’s bad to dream u’ve destroyed someone anatomy eventho it’s juz a lame ol dream.

hahaha ..ok this is such a stoopid dream..even stupider of me to write it down in this blog..
haha but al the same..i’ve always got outrageous dreams~
this is not as bad as the cannibal..but it’s getting there..haha
okay ppl i gtg..duty calls..(hehe laundry)
bye

introducing~~TAI LEONG!!! the fluffy pakee!!

ok..since TAI LEONG has voiced that he’s unhappy with me for mentioning his name only at the end,
now i shall re-happy him by letting his name grace the title of my blog since he said he wanted to be mentioned 1st
hey TAI LEONG u happy mar? u name in capitals sammore ler..

so,due to tl’s dissapointment and his request of fame..hahaha i shall dedicate today’s blog to tai leong..CHEN TAI LEONG aka fluffy aka pakee

lemme start with introducing CHEN TAI LEONG..(drum rolls and confettis all around..wohoo.peweet!!)
tai leong will be 20 this year in 4th of may.(i think)
erm he stays in taman selamat house address i donno..but opposite my housela
less than 30 seconds can reach his house liao..
near near onila(if u all like i can take u tour his housing area..FOC but cannot go in house ok)
um..sammore wat..oh ya..
tai leong i knw him in standard 6 but i did not talk to him then bcoz of his chickenish guts to call me a “bitch”
oh!!! a bitch ehh??eh dat time u 12 years old u knw wat’s a bitch anot?!
anyway i am such a good fella..i forgiven him edilar~after 2 years not talking :]
anyway..he’s okla..
since i am a good fren i shall not disclose any of him bad stuff..haha
the only bad thing i can say is he is very very annoying at times..
but then bcoz he’s a good fren..we always accept him dat way..(tl,u owe us a big makan)
afterall,evryone got flaws rite?

his members in school is lzd,and ben…TRIO always together talk pc stuff which we hav no idea what they’re talking.
sounds like some secret code and so hightech and when they laugh at the jokes..we’re like “er..haha…erm.ha-ha-ha”
and oh he is so freaking good at maths..that he bcom my add maths sifu in form 4..
a heroic attempt to educate my lousy( and when i say lousy i mean LOUSY) MATHS brain
i practically copied his homework and then passed it up..:P(i knw i’m bad!!)
and in form 5,i was too lazy copying homework so i kiss add maths homework goodbye..
so TL juz taught me any MATHS thing which i dunno when i asked him too.
haha never gave up own my chau pa maths brain ar..
yup thanz to him..if it’s not for him i won’t get 8 marks for my test!!!!
8 over 100 ok..not 8/20 or 8/50!! ehhee teaching me to fail ar!! hahha..nola jking
ohya,,tai leong also our good fren la in getting all the movies we want to watch^^ fantastic way~
and he’s a pc pro..if u wan to reformat ur pc find him.he’ll do it for u..best price~ FREE for friends!

oh ya..in F5 thanks to pat he had a MAJOR MAKE OVER..
bcome STYLO kid!! out with that specs~ in with da hp,drivers lisence and contact lens..
oh yeah and a good hair cut!! amazing how little snips of siccors can produce so much wonders~

and i knw u ppl find him tempting..but sorry too bad girls..tai leong is taken!!! muahahha
and my..his awek is a pure awek..cun chick
eh MJ really not like us so chu lu..ppl feminine wan mer..^^

umm..running out of things to say..
and ohH!!
CHEN TAI LEONG,U REALISE RITE?!!U’RE PAYING ME RM100 TO ADVERTISE U?!!!!pay up dude~
hahhaha..give u best price edi mer..write sooo long only for rm 100…
okla..that’s for today..
RECAP:CEHN TAI LEONG is a good fren.trustworthy,smart and.(tl,fil in with ur own words ok)..
wei pakee!damn happy ar u!famous edi la. hahaha..tru out the whole blog mention ur name so many times ler!!!syok hor?

ok ..that’s for today!!
phew~ promo & finding good words really stressing my brain
and ppl…today didn’t mention u all..dun feel left out ar.. trust me
it’s MY blog and i hardly mention MYSELF!!!
but i still love u all
LUV LUVE LOVE,,sarang heyo
muaks muaks
-jinni-

check if i’m missing u..haha

this is my miss list
as in the ppl & things i’m missing soo much rite now.
1.grandad(in heaven hahah)
2.steve & all his good humour.heheh^^i like the stalker thingie~
3.chian ming(hopefulli she’s okay!praying so hard for u girl!!)
4.may june(hoho i’m seeing u soon..and i mean SOON!)
5.fukka cy(oi~ so long no lepak liao bugger!!!)actually it’s like 1 day.haha
6.mommy in KL(hope that she goes shopping^^)
7.FORM 5 life(2003 not including tuition & bla bla bla-u knw,boring stuff) i L-O-V-E it when we hang out like gila siao..
8.of coz all da members from school..the usual trio(lzd,ben,tl),sf,li ying,pat,davin bla bla bla( damn long list )
9.shusi(i kempunan gila weih~)
10.my handphone(not that i use it alot la..since nomore doing long distance to polar & moo moo’s getting okay)
11.the guy in kindy who talked to me during lessons and caused us to be punished(standing on the chair!!)
hahaha..i soo want to knw who he is..^^ dun worry i wont take revenge.
12.pn ong(my primary 1 teacher..i owe her aloot)
13.the time i climbed trees(fuh~ trust me when i say i can climb good)
14.the time i tied the kite to my bike and cycled fast to see if it really can naik(i was 5 then and all i got was a broken kite in the end)haahhaa
15.church camps..hoho
16.and lotsa others :} which i’ll tell u all when i got the time

i’m letting go of things that held me back.
not sweet memories.juz the ones that wasted hell lot of my precious time..
like tezuka always say -yudan sesame ko!(i loove it when arai tried to b like tezuka.so cute & funny!!)
it’s late..2.15am i’m going to bed..
goodnite or goodmorning..up to u lar..
too sleepy to be bothered..
nite2
love-jinni-

ps-i miss spirited away to..i wanna watch spirited away!!!

In Your Eyes

in your eyes..
i am 1 crazy blogger
who wrote 71 posts(this is the 72th!!!)
who received an amazing number of 175 comments!!! from a limited number of reader who are willing to be bored to death by my crazy craps..thank U so much for putting up with my nonsensical thoughts..haha sarang heyo~

i read back all of my 71 posts..
and i dunno why..
it feels like i’m reading another person’s blog..
mayb i’ve changed..my style of telling is different..
but OH MY,i did laugh alot while reading my own blogs…
sumthing about SUPER SAIYA POWER,POSSUM,SAKAI,SAMPAT & lotsa others..

yesterday sharren & sin keat came over to play masak-masak,
so we made choc chip cookies and pineapple tart..
then mom came abck & said she’ll be going down to Kl for conference..
and so since dad’s phone kaputed(my ex phone which i made a profit of rm200 by selling it to him^^)
and sis lent hers to him..
so me as a good daughter lent my phone to mom..not that she’ll ever use it
and so i’ll be out of reach via mobile for 3 days~
but hey~ i got car for 3 days^^ hohoho
can i can go massive online for like 24 hours~
muahahaha evil grin =D
huarghaha
anyway today i gotta go to TM & bank.settle some stuff and school..how can i forget i am supposed to get that annoying girl called “sister” to school ..hahah
nola..stoopid girl..told me to wake her up at 12am to study (forced me with the word”for ur own sister’s future “)
and when i read & read to stay up till 12 to wake her..she said “i headache lar.dun disturb”
so much for doing something for a good cause~ uh^^

i guess i better go..that girl called “sister” is pestering me to send her to school..
and i shall bring my TEZUKA back into the picture
yudan sesame ko!
hahaha
love u all,
jinni

p.s-i miss may june,chian ming and amazingly alvin’s annoying attitude ..

I’VE NO TIME LEFT FOR LOSERS~

MUAHAHAHA evilnyer aku..
but it’s true..
no more spending time on losers..
se-evil-evil-nyer aku
plz get it right,i NEVER say i am looking down on them..
u may not understand what i’m trying to say but as long i knw what i’m saying it’s OK.

so let me tell u a story since i am so f-r-e-a-k-i-n-g b-o-r-e-d
title-LADYBUGS
Once upon a time there’s a ladybug..Yaya i knw ladybug but it’ a HE ok?..and his name is George ^^(i like the sound of dat)
well altho George is a ladybug he’s straight.(not gay or transexual). And thus so,George has an awek(which is also another ladybug) which goes by the name of Leafy. so there u go,George & Leafy!
George & Leafy live in a mulberry bush.And they hav had 10 kids..BUT they’re down to 4 now..
so i’m telling u the history of how they end up frm 10 kids to 4.
1-Tom :the eldest was eaten by a blackbird while they’re playing “here we go round the mulberry bush,mulberry bush mulberry bush)
2-Todd :because he was sick in bed with flu during the blackbird incident,he was safe.but he fell down while flying and went into a coma.and it took George & Leafy ages to terminate the life support.but he made it easier for them,when he died in his sleep smiling ;}
3-Tonks:or u can call her Tonky..she did not die a horrible death..but she ran away from home with a butterfly to the APPLE TREE to try her luck as a star singer.till now,poor George & Leafy hav no news of her.so she’s much afraid dead..
4-Tick:well poor Tick made frens with lotsa ticks(fleas) and he set out to see the world on a dog(by the name of Rocky i think)
well poor Tick and his friends were killed when those ticks were having blood feast on Rocky..Rocky felt itchy and scratched his back and poor Tick was killed by his sharp claws.. 5-True:well,good True is still alive and living next door to Tom & Leafy.she married a decent ladybug,Hugh & hav kids running on her backyard.she never let them play “here we go round the mulberry bush after Tom’s disastrous encounter with the blackbird) 6-Train:a good decent son of George & Leafy.he’s going to Mulberry Bush highschool and his the star player of flying soccer.
works hard and plans to go to APPLE TREE UNiversity.currently dating an amazingly smart bimbo ladybug named Bimbo=D
7-Tack: well tacky Tack died while he was trying to act smart..was trying to fly from Mulberry Bush to Lemon Tree non-stop to creat history.he was trying to overtake a sparrow but ended up being the sparrow’s lunch. -___-~
8-Trum:well Trum’s alive and well.he was flying behind Tack but once he saw Tack being eaten,he has got the common sense to fly back and settle down.currently he’s working as Transportation Manager spreading Hibiscus debunga around .
9-Toing:um Toing died a hero..he entered the war to fight magpie birds that kept attacking Mulberry Bush.but sadly,he died when the war was almost won..he didn’t realise a magpie was behind him and during that ambush he died,eaten by the enemy.. 10-Tinky:well,she the MOSt popular ladybug at Mulberry High..always got a date to Prom..smart but not hardworking enough..but her brother,Train keeps her in line..a little bimbo but always kind.oh her bestfriend is Bimbo.her bro’s awek~ ^^
And thus the 4 kids of George & Leafy :True,Trum,Train & Tinky
will continue the generation of ladybug in Mulberry Bush..and we wish them all the luck and love in the world in hope that they’l live happily ever after. THE END~

good day & goodbye
jinni =D

remember remember..

remember me..and all my crazeeness..

bonjour!
today is my busiest day…
read book till 3 am(wah no school also read mer)
then sleep 1 hour like dat MOO MOO call malam2 buta .
i also blur blur groggy2 talk to him..
cant remember what i said.. hmm woke up at 8am -raining fuh~ syok
tetiba like malas wake up to go church but bcoz i got janji with God so hehe got my arse up and go to church like a good girl
after church got LOVE FEAST..i makan makan syok syok

after lunch took my grandmother to tailor do baju..
haha granny’s good intention scared me abit when she told me she want to make baju for me with some of the extra clothes..
^^ err..no thanks ah ma..i aprreciate it alot but..haha (granny laughed too)hehe
then later i go home..teach mommy make egg tarts.
at same time make for daddy some pineapple tarts..
end up really tired..

then lie down read papers..then MOO MOO called again frm kl…
i was awake ,talk abit..he asked me to die again..
but hahah i m IMMORTAL~
talk talk talk and i talked him into shopping.. ^^
then cy come to take newspaper.poor guy got flu haha~
then i lie around do nothing then online lo..
talk with sharren..wah today i really talk alot heh!!
not bad~also talk with jon,f.woei & su han
talk talk..and listen to lee hom..and sms on phone..
multitasking~at the same time cleaning my mouse..
buy so long until now no clean..so dirty haha and i clean with my facial toner.hahah
pelik rite? hehe dun ask me why~ i am crazee

okay..i think i better go..i want to read literature component..:)
since it;s gonan b kinda boring~ jus like LOrd of the FLies.. huhu
but i am gona read it!!!
till i update again which so gonna be damn frequent since i am bored and creepers are starting to climb over me..
adieu~

love love love love,
jinni *muaks*

flirtatious me~ -____-”

hello?!!
ok ok..confession..cm & cy says i am a flirt..hmm…am i?
hmm..ok..mayb abit…no mayb unknwingly..or subconciously..
hello?!!!! this is sooo not a appropriate thing to say about myself especially coming from my own mouth…haha
and deep down..flirtatious me or not…
i intend to be a person whois kindhearted,understanding,calm and rational okay..mayb sumtimes i say things for fun..u knw to amuse ppl..heheh
ok..so i am going on celibation(hello flirting celibation.not sex u donkey)
u see la..i can put on any mood i choose..
so today mood will b “nice & sweet” so “crazy,fun,sexy& flirty” is out of the door,into the dustbin.
AMEN and be gone… HAHA

okok..enough with rubbish…
what about my course ? ar?how ler? i tensyen ok!
tensyen! setensyen-tensyen yang boleh ditensyenkan…
haha pray for me okay..
and i already planned i am so gonna get myself into a biblestudy group when i get my arse into UNI.
so also praying now no matter where or which uni i go,i can continue to serve the LORD
AND NOT BE A TOTAL SLACKER!! (camonla..i betul betul got a heavy arse)

ok! what next!!
i so need to get a job..trust me..i am getting fat & lazy..
and plz..money frm working is the fund to all my shoppings..
DAD refuses to let me go on big shopping spree once a month..
okay..mayb once a month is crazee,,
hahaa ok..but i thinki better work then the money can go in extra to buy gadgets!!!
i am going techno girl…no more baju baju!!
but i need to get a good facial product 1st..
deng~i am getting ugly..complexion is really going down the drain..grr

okok leave me alone to my moaning..anyway today’s mood is “nice & sweet”
altho i swear i am not gonan answer any calls from those ah bengs…
let me tell u how 1 conversation went.
TRITT TRITT
jinni:hello
ah beng:hallo
jinni:who are u?
ah beng :shi wo lar..(it’s me lar)
jinni:yes? is there anything?
ah beng: jau ni lar..(find u lar)
jinni:i bz now bye
*slams phone b4 he waste my time*
btw i speak chinese..haha ..and i heard frm sharren he’s only 17..
mygod why find auntie like us to talk?
u want to talk to aunties.. plz la talk to ur mom..
spend more quality time with mom is better than wasting money on ppl like us..
stoopid kid~

okay dat’s it..enoff of blog…i m going..
adieu frens~

psst..can u keep a secret?

yeah~ so can i..HAHA
anyway this thing is no secret..
went to shar ren’s house yesterday to sorta makan as well as celebrate alvin’s pre-bday.
so i tell u..sin keat,sharren,choi mei& her sis came to my house…
make egg tarts for nite’s programme…ok~ it turned out edible ok?! tho i should hav used a better oven.. once we;re done..mom sent us to sharren’s house..
and there i learned to make pudding..HOHOHO..wintermelon & longan..not bad ehh..simple and easy!!
and damn fast..I LOVE TECHNOLOGIES & INNOVATIONS~~
and what can i say? sharren’s mom is an absolute good cook..thank u auntie~
i tell u..i put on extra kgs because of last nite..to think of the amount of food i downed..
i am a compulsive eater..hm..what does “compulsive” means btw? haha
oh ya~ and alvin’s bday..a cake , a card & a prezzie..nothing 5 star but i think it’s the heart that counts..
not that guys love surprises anyway..not they knw anything about sentimental value.. -___-”
the nite ended with us heading back home to hit the sack.. ahah..we’re old edi lar..wad u expect us to do?
hit a club and dance on table tops? hahaha..really ~-~

ok..and i dunno why..i am always an early riser..but i think i am getting lazy..
i woke up at 9am (disgusting i knw..i am such a pig)..
and because i was so bored..i read danielle steel’s the ranch..1st book which i keep putting off to read at another time
but surprisingly i found it quite nice..
true u should never judge the book by its cover(& honestly the red cover really puts me off) hahaha

um..so oh yea..i think i am positive i dun want to take science in education..
i mean it’s not really my calling..haha
although i must say that i love biology.but i don’t think i can put up with chemistry any longer.haha
honestly,evryone knws i am so rotten in chem and maths .. so who am i trying to trick by taking bio major and chem minor?
so TESL it is..i muz so get over with doing sciences despite the fame & glory..haha
no use doing something ppl thinks so highly of u and yet u hate urself for doing it sorry cm,i may not be putting ums as my first choice..sorry~ i sooo want us to be in the same uni..
but TESL in sabah is almost impossible..with my pointers AND WHY ON EARTH PPL WANT TO GO TO SABAH FOR TESL? HAR HAR?!
I AM SO KIND TO VOLUNTER MYSELF TO GO THERE AND U PPL WANT TO FIGHT WITH ME FOR A PLACE THERE?!!!
WHY?! I GIVE U PPL CHANCE TO GO TO KL WHY U STILL WAN TO FIGHT FOR UMS WITH ME?!
I AM SO VOLUNTEERING TO PAY FOR MY AIR TICKET AND TRAVEL 6 HOURS AND YET U ALL WANT TO MAKE THINGS DIFFICULT FOR ME?! WHY?! HAR HAR!!
i just want to go to sabah with cm..so we can go to strawberry villa..go for canopy walks..
OH yea..and of coz study lar..
grr… i’ve even planned which shopping centre to go,which church to go..and where to play during breaks.. grrr..
okay okay..i’m gonna pray about it..ask GOD…UMS or UPM?!!!
no.not PMS..oh yea..and what other 6 choices??
bercabang cabang my crossroad..way to go jinni~
i love u all ppl.
and yes i knw..we NEVER spill secret..it’s called gossip.hahaha
but our mouth are such good zippers…u can trust us on that..
cross my heart and hope to sleep soundly at nite

unforgettable…

AND I LOVE U TOO…..
seriousla ppl, i love u guys alot la..
walaupun dengan moodivia-moodivia,negative aura sekalian..hahaha :]

so what’s new today????
hm..i couldn’t wake up dis morning..
when cy came this morning..i hav to send him a msg via my sis
“jinni’s sleeping..she dun want to go to school”
haha while i syok syok bergolek-golek on the bed with my so comfortable comforter:P
woke up hungry,read newspaper while devouring a roti canai…

then boring…check the frige dun hav butter..
grr..i can’t make egg tarts today..
fuh~ did i say dat day cy and i (& supposedly davin -_-”)
juz learned how to make a mean egg tart…1st time mer!!!!dun play2..hahaha
evrything went well..except the part of making the crust..it got stuck to the aluminium foil.
and we tought the dough was a goner ..until we use plastic bags it turned out nice..skipping the part where we forgot to oil the tray.. but i guess they love it..davin took the recepi frm me..dat means the egg tart’s a success rite?
OH EGG TARTS MUA~~i kempunan dun care..i m gonna get butter later..
we’re having egg tarts today!!!

Ohh~ my uni application..i dunno..i am still praying about it.. praying~ cuz i dunno what i want to do..
i mean yeala TESL…But i want to do sumthing which God thinks is best for me.. :]
heheheh…sabah,sarawak mana-manala..be prepared to face my moodivia..ceh~
hahaha..i am so gonna stop my “moodivia” thing..
say u love me..hahaha..good rite.no moodivia…

hm running out of things to say liao…so i guess i better take my leave..
i so wanna watch english comedy & movies..
deng~ alvin..u plz return me my BJD and my spirited away!!!!
on another note..lets go out tonite!!!!