argh..holiday almost over and i dun think i actually studied anything..what i did was play play play~
hohoho..now in such a cooking mood. COok coOK CoOk!!!hehe..so sien at home went out and shop for rations-eg.can food,junk food,cereals..haha..
and demmit..my hair is shedding..lol..good word.shed..yea GUGUR beb.not 1 or 2 but like alot.. maybe 10-20 A DAY!!!mayb even more than dat..
also SHOUT OUT to da Lord!! thank U Father God for answering my prayers.thank U!!!U’re the best U ROck.but then,U always .haha still i gotta say..U’re unbelievable super CUNTED!!syok syok~
oh mom went to kl dis morning for conference ^^.she very naughty..yesterday nite bug me to talk to her when i want to study..when finish talking she syok syok go to bed.NVM,slambe and syok syok say “STUDY YA!!” like woo..wat the.anyway we bertanding smsing.see who can sms faster.haha she took 10 minutes..i was like “mom,u can’t evem sms to save ur life!”she’s went like” aih,dun make so much noise.call u studi onli u knw” =.=’
and i good gorl.i woke up early~and i gonna go out buy some shorts..my goodness i am wondering where all my shorts go..i mean no more pants to wear bside jeans..oni got 2 shorts left.hm.mayb sum pervert like my pants..so he curi~hahaha.
oh yea.yesterday go see granmother.so happy! HApPy LAlaLa..ooh,..got new cat there.very tame..and manja!!! warhaha..and talk for almost 2 hours.me granma and i la.Not the cat.heheh.
wah so cunted.go penang,then ipoh,then teluk batik,then shopping,then church.tonite got b’day celebration!!wohoo..syok!!haha..and hopefuli can hang out tonite^^..yea baby..just the 2 of us~
lol.i mean da dudes la.dudes,suddenly wanna go end of the world eat nasi lemak.yea.we can make it if we try..LalaLa
OH..tl tempting me to go KL to shop!!BAD BOY>very bad..i am most displease with ur suggestion…OH AY YEAH BARGHERS AFTER TRIALS WE DO BBQ OK?HAU MA?wohoo~BBQ BBq bBq bbQ!! please say yes..we really need a break then.it’s not that we’re not taking a break now.but dun u guys notice after evry crap exams we always take a LOONG FREAKING GOOD BREAK?let’s to it~BBQ!those in favour plz raise ur hands!! yes!!! BBQ it is& BBQ it will be!!
til then ..may the FREAKING STUDY MOOD CONTINUE TO LINGER if not alot at least abit among u guys~
p.s -dun take panadol k?^^juz pray pray pray~and of coz stuedi^^. love u all..
holiday-friends,teapot & me
holidays~~
well,start off with what happened.frenster blog was experiencing a few prob..but yea..everything’s fine now..round of applause for frenster..clap clap!!
ok.last week was like school week..i was good..i mean got touch the text books..haha..
btw..we went out alot..i mean da dudes. yeap but i went to penang for first 2 days so missed out alot.
after i got a fon for my sis.samsung..i sendiri HIAU wan get new fon.so i sold my fon to dear daddy and made a profit of rm 50..i bought the fon for rm750 but sold it for rm 800..haha crooked..but so what..even if i sell it cheaper he still hav to chip in for the extra cost to get a new fon ^^
so btw penang was nice la..but mostly was visiting all the uncles and long lost-never-seen-before-relatives. and went down to kedah too for more visitation..they’re nice,friendly and polite..AND i was VERY NICE FREINDLY &POLITE TOO..oh yea..did sum shopping too.not much..^^
when i came back ..cm scolded me.. like “WHERE WERE U?!!!” haha..did i say i dun hav a hp anymore? ehehe..so yea..i am sucha adorable kid.sure to b missed..hahah
so next day we went to IPOH>>for MORE SHOPPING! we drove there..actually mj drove..lotsa funny thing..made alot of wrong turning..and deja-vu all the way..and made a lot of u-turns at no-u-turn area..but..there was NO no-u-turn sign..so since they dun say cannot so it’s not wrong rite? izit? and we went shopping..poor cy was being pulled around..haha..and we watched BEWITCHED..and the day B4 we watched THE ISLAND..and my gosh..we did not shop alot tho we went to 2 shopping complexes..trust me NOT EVEN CM THE SHOPPING QUEEN!!well she did not add any collection to her 13 pair of shoes..haha..
well..in short evrything’s great..MJ bought 2 very sexy erm..hehe..yeap..10Q MJ u are the best super driver and the U-TURN QUEEN!!..
oH YEA..i’m gonna go out and look the guy at the mobile phone shop..such a bum.keep persuading me to
buy phones which i dun wanna buy..blueak~one more time he does that ,i’m seriously gonna shout at him!! total AH BENG>>yuck~WORSE than the WORST ah beng who colour their hair blond,wear dragon motive shirt and super shiny pants with silly flip flops!
ahahaa
reminder:NO HP>SO CALL ME AT MY HOUSE NUM OK?! 
love me..oh yea..love u too!!
starting from scratch
ok.the point here is i practically lost evrything..now dun think dirty..u dick!virginity is not what i lost.
literally la meaning i lot evrything..gosh.can u ppl just think straight for a sec..duh~orang2 m’sia~
THE THING IS:
-I like this feeling..i mean i can feel the drive,the urge,the passion to strive and move forward. which is like, good and forceful. and big goal to achieve,but not feeling any intimidation or fear..
starting from scratch,from nothing..once in a while it takes u on a road to rediscover your real self.on the way,u see how much u grow..how much u can take..but scratch here not only apply to failures..it applies to any other situation.juz as long u hav the feeling to start afresh…:)
- good will,and forgiveness…meaning i forgive evry single person who wronged me..and also hopefullly, they forgive me too,if i in anyway hav wronged them..hmm..nice word “wronged”..
-and i hav thought of alot of things..many things i’m still not ready and do not hav the ability to take it in my stride..like LOVE,heh sad to say..haha..but i’m settling no less..no boy-girl happy happy hug-kiss-fuck thing.haha kinda harsh..but i think in many cases..when couples in love,they hav this thing where they only see what they want to see..and be blind to all other flaws..gasps~ not the way to fall in love ppl..to love is to accept all flaws..well;that’s bsides the main pt.i sidetracked.the thing is..I am in no position for Luv.aih..i cannotla..not time yet,the responsibility..is not what i can handle now.mayb later nicely said!!
-also many things i’m still not ready,like facing the real world..but i’m not afraid..i just wanna spread my wings..take flight..not afraid to learn..even if there might b failures along the way.
-also,i’ve been in relationships..i may have forgotten some important stuffs..but i would like to say them now.thank you for helping me grow..though the time was not right,but personally,u have been a great help..lending a hand,a shoulder,and a ear..all the best in whatever u do. this may sound a lil conservative,but haha i guess i still need to say..tho it sounds so ewwy..haha juz bear with me for a sec.
“all the best in ur relationship.what that did not work for us..doesn’t matter..i’ll b praying that it works for u and the one u love”hehe;) i’m done.no more mushy2 stuff.sorry for making u ppl bulu naik.:P
-and for me,i’ve been growing up so fast..in such a short span of time..learning so much..and yes,FATHER LORD never let me down,never forsaken me..knowing the LORD is one of the best thing that ever happened to me..pulled me tru evry hardship..seriously,i will not b standing here today without HIM. through the darkess time of my life,bringing me to the happiest and highest..:) thank you LORD.
-haha..and my frens..:)how could i ever thank you guys! DUDES!BUGGAS!..u dun knw how much u ppl mean to me…even when i am in moodivia mode..u guys stick by me..sharing all ups and downs..haha the oni hard stuff now is stpm.after that,we’ll hav many2 UPS!!oh,tai leong..sorry le..u knw la..me and my gila2,SIAO siao personality..no longer mad at u.hehe..but next time dun say things like dat ok?.:) lain kali,tiada maaf bagi mu.haha.sorry again if i gav u a hard time.
-also,..i’lll not let anyone down!!…not JESUS,my family,my frens,my teachers..and definately not myself..
i’m gonna b the BEST i can be..so pray for me ya?!hehe..:)
-ok..long blog..nice..this is the most happeningestest-ter-est thing that happen..hey this is like a turning point in my life..hehe..and taking this opportunity to thank evryone..from the school canteen aunty to my mommy.and not forgetting those i held grudges..ai.i said harsh stuff..forgive me..mayb we can be friends? if u are willing? hehe ok. ppl..thank you all..i’ll pray for u guys too..jus the plain fact that u exist, really make me happy!! mrs tan.mr choong i will not let u ppl down!! i promise to work hard in my maths..
HAPPY ~ ok! study time..
Uncategorized | Comments (4)panic attack
syptoms of panic attack..for my case..it’s just severe headache..the cure..sleep of course.. like yesterday i slept at 8pm and woke up this morning at 6am..crazy me..yea..and got panic again bcoz i did not study at all last nite..crazy me~ well..what’s the harm? struggle for few more months then a 6 months break till u get ur results..and then hello UNI! well ,dat is if u manage to enter UNi with that cgpa of urs..of course..
well..after this blog updates will not b as frequent..but hav no fear.dear people!!! u can see me at school, u can come to my house and bug me(apply oni to da DUDES) but plz no sms..i hardly check my phone nw..let alone recharge the batt..it’s like sum dead fish lying around somewhere..u see,i put it to silent mode and then misplaced it..wohoo..way to go~….and i am sick of being SICK..stupid cold,stupid cough..stupid doctor!!! to all f6,anyone of u who plan to study medic(i forbid myself to even think of the course),plz b a good doctor..dun b like this lousy jerk who dun even knw dat i’m sick..so totally retarded..until i hav to tell him like’er..doc,i think it’’s food poisoning!!” DUH~so stupid..surely graduated frm india or ukraine dis stupid guy..and he replied”hm,yeah..mayb,nvm i’ll giv u medicine to stop ur nausea” aduh~
ok..why am i talking stuff like this..well..to all frens..mj,ben u enjoy ur hols..to cm and alvin,who faithfully sit bside me tru all my up and downs,moodivia and sickness.. haha..i m such a lovable kid!!!..
to cy that smartass..so smart,no need study also get so good result..and i knw u gonna say “cock suck,super cock”…u la!!…wash ur mouth with soap.still owe me kfc u maggot~
and i better not skip anymore tuitions..alvin said he brought a rope to tie me to the chair..and mrs.tan will come untie me when it’s time for maths tuition..h-a-h-a..very funny~
haih..that’s for now..well..most prob until trials..unless sumthing totally happening happen..
dun miss me ya~haha!!!
mj when u gonna cook for us?
to know me is to love me
oh..curious cat, oyster shells and me. I M SO DEPRESSED>not bcoz of tl..for the millionth time i’m telling u ppl..dat’s history.i’m just depressed..i’m depressed at this time of the year starting last saturday….practically trying to drown myself with passion juice,mango juice and plain water.. no mood for eating, let alone studying…..oh my~~i’ve no more sense of motivation.. ok..i’ve done a totally stupid thing on saturday!!!! WHAT WAS I THINKING?!! LETTING MY HAPPINESS SLIP OUT OF MY OWN HANDS!!!!!!!!!! my reason to do well,my comforter, my rock…gosh~.life’s bad… jus the thought of being alone..without any backup, is sickening.and knwing that the someone who cares and is willing to stand by me is no longer there.is sheer hell…well,mayb this is for the best..my heart is heavy..and i dun feel good..mayb…polar is feeling the same.well,who knws..distance, a barrier..still,experiece makes one a better man…so much to learn….so little time and so much obstacles..
today is a new day..i’m not mourning anymore..all things happen for a reason.thus,no reason to regret..i am a better person today bcoz of what i learn from the past..what is mine will b mine..no matter what happens!!..success,love and happiness is on the way..little hardship is not stopping me.hardship is the only way to make u appreciate ur good fortune more. omgoodness..how can i forget,
FATHER LORD>>who is always by my side.
the ONLY ONE who has not forsake me in all my time of trouble..THANK YOU LORD>SO MUCH~
tv, tea & me
life’s good. getting better..juz occasional coughing..frens visited last nite.guess i was still a lil crazy and moody..went to bed early.but i am OK ~ the sun is shining and i hav a hot steaming cup of creamy tea..
theraputic..the bestest cure for any bad day..so..i am goin to my grandmother place later:)
and really in dilemma ..wanna buy that pink sandals but i dun like to wear those that cut ur toes.OUCH~
also..i need to get a bag.well may b not desperate..but i juz need to buy myself sumthing to make me happy. HAHA THAT”S MORE LIKE IT!!
and i am goin to say this for the dunno-number-how-many-millionth-time i gotto start studying.
yea.study..like evry single demn book.word for word.augh..GOD HELP ME!! i KNOW u giv me LOTSA BRAINS>.i’m juz t0o lazy..but nw i am praying me that u gimme FOCUS>YEA>>FOCUS AND GOOD CONCENTRATION.and good memory.IN SHORT<BLESS MY STUDIES>i am such a last minute ass..
oh..cm got a dog.a dog.DOGGY,,..i am yet to meet the pup.but frm the way they say he’s sounds mighty cute. me..i dun adopt animals.they adopt me. like the 4 stray kittens at the back of my house.turn up one day and nw i’m feeding them like they’re mine.haha..one good thing..i dun hav to clean their poo.^^
another thing,i am a lil frust.u knw what over a highlighter..HAA!!!! nice pink but it’s flows..smudge my book.grr.no mind today i am goin to church yeyey~ and tomorrow i hav tambourine.hope i dun cough truout the whole sunday service.hohoho..so in the mood to do handcraft but NO>>NOWAY!! STUDY!!!!!!..
study~~~s-t-u-d-y! macam dipaksa sajer..haha noler..!!rela hati i study..u knw how many ppl in this world is underprivilige cannot afford to pay for education..hav to work at a young age.here we are in malaysia wheree ur parents pay for evrything and we still hav the guts to say “WE DUN WANT TO STUDY” useless worthless kids..STUDY la dammit… see..eye opener…or izit can-opener? hehe
a total waste of time
here i am,down with fever.and dem freaking angry! WHY?! BCOZ a trusted fren of mine thinks it’s funny and tot it was like the best joke in the world when he says “OMG JINNI,ur dressing taste really drop dresticlyduring installation.u should go for sum drastic action.DRESS SIMILAR LIKE PROSTITUTE PULAK”well tanz to his spiteful words mean attitude and disgusting face..i cried my eyeballs out for 2 hours.when to sch with a high fever and a trobbing haed.so much for a good fren. i used to think if actually keeping this piece of dirt is worthy,but nope.he repeated the same mistake.trying to act high and mighty and know-it-all..1st he called me a BITCH when i was 12.well i tot he was young and silly..but what explaination is there when he says i dress like a PROSTITUTE? when i am 18. i put the past behind and try to b frens it worked for a while.now..it’s the end.i dun want such a lousy and degrading fren.. and of all ppl he has already got a gf..so what the fuck has it got to do with him concerning my dressing?
i dun comment his gf.i did not say she dress like a slut or a whore!!i was so neutral when he bragged
about his dumb emptyheaded darling..i think she blind to want such a low class slime like him!
..and of all things he THINKS IT”S HILARIOUS TO CRACK A JOKE THAT SAYS MY DRESSING SIMILAR TO A PROSTITUTE!!!!!! and he thinks he’s so dem smart..and tried to apologise by by saying “ER..I WAS JOKINGLY COMMENTING NIA..” what if sumone said the same thing to his gf.what would he feel..really..amamoka..simple manners and respect also dun hav.and hav still hav this thick face to get a gf?!
ok dat’s it.from this day forth,i hav nothing to do with chen tai leong.never seen never known.bcoz he is a
such a WORTHLESS friend.
to those who really stick by my side tru thick and thin.i thank u all..i may hav wasted 7 years of frenship with tai leong.but it’s good now that i knw his REAL ATTITUDE..
no point keeping a fren like him.it serve no purpose and no benefits..in fact..i think i need to thank him for showing me dat,he who i consider dearly as a fren is actually such a FAKER.thanz for opening my eyes.all the best,chen tai leong.the frenship was good when it lasted.until u ruined the whole thing.